Long time no post (as usual).
Over the past few months, I’ve been feeling fairly uninspired both creatively and on a “what am I doing with my life” sense. Within the past 3 months, I have totaled a car (not my fault), experienced the joy of purchasing a car, lost a beloved pet, moved away from my childhood home (with my family), turned 21, and focused on my future more than I ever had before. To say this summer has been a rollercoaster is an understatement. This December I graduate from college so along with the stress of moving from the mountains to the desert, I’ve also had the joy of thinking about grad school, careers, budget, rent, moving out, supporting myself as a human being.
Now, my parents have been nothing but supportive, and (I think) I have handled all of this fairly well considering it all happened literally at once. However, I have also noticed a huge shift in myself. I’ve gone through shifts in my life before, and I’ll write more another those another time, but this one was different. Usually, when I go through a time of change, I am just unmotivated to go after what I want. But now, I have no idea. I’ve been unmotivated, uninspired, and almost directionless for the past few months.
Last week when thinking about my little blog here, I felt I didn’t have these intricate posts to share. I partially wanted to post about bullet journaling, but I didn’t want to go through the efforts. The only thing I could find the motivation post here was something like this. Just a venting session. So here’s an update:
- I’ve created another website. Not a blog a website. I’m still working on it, but I’m proud of where it’s going. It’s music based where I create playlists and post about music, artists, albums, articles, music product reviews etc. I’m having fun with it and I’m really happy.
- I am keeping this blog. I debated this for a while and I am keeping it. Maybe some days I’ll post things that are helpful. Maybe even a little school or lifestyle related posts will slip in. But I’m also not going to be afraid to just rant my little heart out and complain about being uninspired and unmotivated.
- Graduation scares me and I don’t want to leave my lovely college town.
In conclusion, I’m still a little directionless, but I hope you stay along for the ride. That’s all I really have to say so…. bye!